Monday
I'm no where near where I hoped to be at this point in this journey. I'm having the hardest time dragging both feet back on the wagon, but I know this fight is worth it.
My body is a machine. It's purpose is to carry me through life, and it can't do what it needs to do if I disrespect that purpose by fueling it with junk. We get one chance at this life. Why not give it our best?
I'm hungry.
Tuesday
I feel so much better when I eat moderately and well! I can do this!
So much work to do outside! This will be great!
Wednesday
Phew. My body aches. I must have overdone it yesterday.
Two grocery bags of chips? Why would he buy two grocery bags of chips?! I don't like chips. I don't like chips. I don't like chips.
Thursday
Well that's not good. I didn't think I ate that many last night. I wonder how many calories are in half a bag?
Going to take it easy today. It's a feast day in the Church and we all need a rest from time to time.
I have another day yet this week to make a big difference.
Friday
Baking four dozen cookies today for our company tomorrow. There will be 11 kids here, so they should eliminate most of them!
All I'm going to eat today is a can of tuna and vegetables!
I don't need to try the cookies. I've made them hundreds of times before and they've never not been fantastic.
Have to make sure the cookies taste okay though....Guests coming and all....
Man that was a good cookie.
They'll be hot for only 10 more minutes so I'll enjoy just one more....
This container will close better if I just eat these two...don't want any smashed cookies now....
I guess I'm having cookies for supper.
Saturday
This week instead of journaling calories, I decided to track the prevailing thoughts of the day. I imagined it might reveal some deep-seeded reason for my lack of vigor lately in this healthful living battle. But really, it's everything I already knew about myself...all my weaknesses just seem to have washed to the surface lately. Lack of will power, lack of care. Lack of care.... That's it. That is the deep-seeded reason I was looking for all week!
I've gotten to the point where, for the first time ever, I really really don't care what number I have to tell you all about on Saturday morning. I'm burned out. And that fact really scares me. It means that these posts have lost their main reason for being: i.e., accountability for me. In the past I've continued to write for inspiration, so all of you struggling along your own paths know that I'm here too, winning small victories, tripping and deciding about 50 times a week that I'll just stay fat for the rest of my life. Far from being inspiring lately, I feel this space for me has become stagnant. Even if I had incredible results to share, I strongly feel I'd be at this same point.
I've wistfully thought about spending my Saturday mornings writing posts about things I am currently passionate about...posts that I don't make time for during the week because there are so many other things to do in the mornings. Ending these posts was not even on my radar when I sat down at the keyboard this morning, but I feel very strongly that this is the right decision at this time.
For now the plan will be to continue Scale Saturday posts in a monthly capacity. I'm not giving up my fight for a healthful life, but I believe changing gears now is going to propel me to the next step I need to reach in this journey.
If you've enjoyed my musings and ramblings thus far, feel free to wander on over here Saturdays. I hope to finally get some posts published that have been in the works for an incredibly long time. Otherwise, I will check back in with the next Scale Saturday post June 9th.
I'll leave you all with the results from this week. Adieu...not forever, but for now!
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