Scale Saturday 2018: Week 17

As you may have noticed, it's not Saturday. And though I hate to disappoint, there was no scale this past week either. It's probably hard to understand, but it took an incredible amount of mental energy for me to even begin this "nowhere" post. Fatigue has hit me like a Mack truck, so much so that yesterday I broke my one-cup-of-coffee rule with two, then promptly passed out and slept for most the afternoon with Addie. I'm here because I can't leave my weight battle hanging or I may just give up.

The past week was incredibly taxing, and I hit the limit of what I could handle around Tuesday. Come to think of it, Eli ripped the toilet (the one and only toilet) out Monday, so that's fitting. From there it was a marathon to install cement board, cut and lay tile, leave time for the thinset and mastic to dry, and then grout without having kids run through it. This was all started with the goal to have everything set and dry and ready for the new toilet to be installed Wednesday night after Eli got home from work. I was up until midnight a couple nights laying tile, with breaks in between to feed and put kids to bed.

I'll spare you every snag of the process, but we just made it in time for Addie's first birthday party Saturday with a fully functional bathroom.

I guess I don't feel completely alive unless I'm pushing myself to achieve ridiculous goals? I don't know.

So while the bathroom was all tore up the scale was tucked away in a closet. Every morning I dragged my sore aching body out of bed and thought about stepping on the scale. And every morning some other chore took precedence over the scale.

I can tell you as of Tuesday morning I was up 2 pounds from what I weighed in at Saturday. I cannot tell you where I am now, six days later. I ate what everyone else here ate, whatever was leftover. I didn't count calories. Tomorrow I'll drag myself back on the scale and begin again. Perhaps it's fitting that I let it rest for the remainder of April and will have renewed enthusiasm with the dawn of a new month. That's what I'll keep telling myself anyway. Until next Saturday!