I was going to give some excuse for postponing today's post till Monday, but after arguing with myself for an hour this morning, I came to the conclusion that my blog is all about the realities of life that maybe some people gloss over. And the truth is, in this journey you are going to trip and have to get back up. So this is my virtual dusting-off-the-knees and limping forward. It brings me back to why I named my blog The Space Between in the first place...this life is the space between where we started and where we want to be. It is a journey, not a destination. No one belongs here for very long.
This week's battle: Addie's first ear infection and a sinus infection for me. Addie was sleeping through the night before she got sick around the first of the year. Since then, most nights have been long, repeated feeding sessions; some she was in so much pain she just screamed every hour on the hour.
This week has made me stop and think about all those who are suffering from chronic pain or illnesses. I don't know how they do it. All week I've had really bad headaches and sinus pain. I had sharp pains shooting through my teeth, there was so much pressure in my face, which was swollen and red. I spent every second of down time with a warm washcloth thrown over my face, and when Sudafed and Flonase failed to work I finally went to the doctor. Addie and I are both on antibiotics now. The good news: Addie only woke up twice last night to eat!
Amidst the growing frustration I felt I found myself allowing myself this or that little treat throughout the week. While that shouldn't have been a big deal, my "revised-eating-habits muscles" are not beefed up enough to withstand that kind of liberty yet. A "what the heck" deep fat fried onion ring at a birthday party turned into a handful of breaded cheese/broccoli and cheese balls. A celebratory beer turned into three, because you can't just stand there with nothing in your hand...right? And when we got home I was hungry because I really hadn't eaten supper...might as well throw some pizza rolls in the oven. Sigh
I lost two pounds this week. I was holding steady! And then I gained five back. I'm back where I was at the end of week one...and that stings. But I've brushed off my knees, and I'm not going to cry about it. I will not get an off day this weekend because frankly, this was pretty much an off week. If the past is any sort of an indicator though, the regained weight comes off quicker the second time around. So if you're new to this, don't let it discourage you!
I'd love to hear if any of you have started a weight-loss or health makeover this year! How are you doing? What are some of your tricks and tips?
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