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Friday, March 11, 2016

Failure to Launch

My brain hurts. It's late, but insomnia has plagued me the last several weeks. So instead of crawling in bed like I should, I've spent my time editing blog posts (I worked on four tonight) and binge watching home renovation shows. (My favorite, besides This Old House, of course, is Fixer Upper. Joanna Gaines' blog is also one of my happy places.)

Facebook makes my head hurt. Reading makes my head hurt. Actually, reading has also made me feel extremely restless lately, so writing or watching others work on TV has been therapeutic.

I'm trying to work at least one blog post to completion. The issue I've come up against can probably in all likelihood be attributed to OCD. Too many ideas struggling to be organized at once. The multiple (blogger counts 24) posts I have sitting in draft form were started when inspiration struck, and added to long enough that I'm not sure if they even flow well anymore.

I've read, edited, cut out, rearranged, ranted, and cut out more so many times that they amass quite the patchwork of words. At one point I came across a sentence that read LDSJNSD959*$@)*@#8=^%&! (or something similar). Either someone was playing with my phone, or I dropped it mid-thought and missed the addition.

I sit here scrolling up and down a post trying to measure if it's too long. I've divided some posts in half to make two-part posts, not to overwhelm anyone. I'm sure I'm just overthinking this. Right?

I read one post to Eli to get his feedback. He made a great sounding board, mostly not afraid to speak his mind, and even if he is hesitant to tell me the absolute truth at times I can read it in his face. Unfortunately he's not always here at my convenience.

To avoid too much "radio silence" I'll post a recipe instead. Or two.

So, in the absence of posts from me--or one too many recipes--just know that I'm working on it. :)




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